Brainwashed

 The lizard brain is the part of the brain that is our critic to everything we create and do that lies outside of the boundaries of “normal” or what everyone else does. It tries to keep you from failing, but in the process makes you a very harsh critic to everything else your do. Making art becomes very hard to do in this situation because anything that is art or creative is out of the normal. Art doesn’t have boundaries so the lizard brain has no clue how to process it. It automatically rejects the art and tells you it is not sufficient.

These two parts of the process are really important to me. I am going into a creative based job field, and it makes it really hard for me to accept what I am doing with my life when my “lizard brain” tells me I am not doing something correctly. I have an extremely critical voice, and it is helpful to know that everyone deals with this problem. I have learned it is okay for me to fail.

I fail all the time. Many people refer to fails as funny.  I don’t every time I screw up my critical voice gets worse, but this manifesto makes so much sense to me. I understand that we as humans will always fail. It is about being able to collect ourselves and retry again, and go through the same process again. This process shows me how to find my true self and who I am to become.

This process is repeatable in my opinion. This blog is a perfect representation. I have multiple posts, and every post builds on itself making it a more complex piece. Each time I go through the same process. I connect with people, I am generous with my thoughts, I create art through words, I acknowledge that I may be critical about what I am saying, I ship the blog by posting it, and sometimes I will fail. Then at the end of the day, I learn from my failures and try another post.

This process most of us are doing already. I look now and see that I am. I do realize though that I am too critical in my work and who I am. I do consider myself to be an eccentric person, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have a place in society.  Even though the normal may think this, or try to make me feel that I must change myself to fit in. I have learned in college and through various experiences that it is just better to be myself than try to pretend I am someone I’m not. I feel as if others like me would embrace their individuality instead of pretending to be who they’re not, our society would be a much better place.

I have also learned I can’t be safe. I can’t play scared and go into an industry that doesn’t matter to me because that is also not being true to myself. I have seen it so much sense I’ve been in college. People really like doing one thing and go into a different occupation that they don’t really care about. Or they won’t go to college altogether. I have truly learned who I am this year and that its okay to be different. I no longer worry about the people who are brainwashed into thinking its not okay to be who your are.